Everyone was always one step ahead of me so, most of the times I felt like I was stupid or dumb. There was something about me that I’m still not really sure of that makes everyone gravitate away from me. It like you have problems with one person and suddenly everyone
at school hates you. Although that may not be entirely true, I did always feel like no one ever truly liked me and good friends were so hard to make. I constantly felt like I was
intoxicated by the people who were around me because they made it so hard for me to
really believe in and love myself.
I’ve always been a little too sensitive, but I guess that’s ok because that’s a huge part of who
I am. Maybe that’s the reason why a lot of people feel like I’m weak or something.
Personally, I think that people have a wrong idea of what toughness means. Everyone thinks
that being a badass is cool and that being strong really means not showing or having any
emotions. I believe that being strong really means having the courage to vulnerably express
your emotions not tucking them away somewhere.
How is it that when you do one mistake your labelled for life? I’ve been called dumb several
times in my life and what I’m just supposed to brush it off? Getting a lower grade than a few
people shouldn’t define my IQ. This very judgement has costed me a lot in my life especially
friends. People don’t seem to understand that what they say can affect other people
especially the way they feel about themselves. In a world filled with so much pressure
typically the one place that doesn’t come from is yourself. But because of your stupid
opinions now pressure has started coming from there too. You don’t understand that the
simplest things sometimes can hurt someone in a way it could never hurt you.
The boy you turned away from your group has now joined a gang of drug dealers. The girl
you said was to fat and ugly to be part of your “popular” squad has now stopped eating.
What I’m trying to say that we should all have our own opinions and not develop
judgements purely based of false knowledge. What we say hurts people whether we know it
or not. So please let’s not stick to the status quo.