I know people who are completely sorted in their lives, they know that in school they’ll select so-and-so subjects, that after school they will go to so-and-so college and that all the way till they retire they are completely sorted. Now people like this scare me, they make me wonder whether I should be exactly like them, plan my whole life from right now up until my job and right until I can take a step back and retire. They make me feel like I need to get my shit sorted, that I am somehow a couple steps behind, even though deep down I know that I have time. And that’s exactly what people around me say, that “oh you have 2 or 3 years, time hai”. But this reassurance initially seemed empty to me. I don’t know what I will study after the 12th grade, I don’t know what I want to be, I don’t know what my future holds for me completely, and hence, this empty void ahead of the 12th grade seemed like it would just suck me up.
But what I have learnt, maybe just in the past 2 months as a result of talking to my parents and talking to some friends of mine that have completed college and are beginning their professional careers, is that not knowing is completely alright. There’s thousands of different things you could be doing 10 years down the line and latching on to one thing which you feel is right for you, for whatever reason, may not always be beneficial. And right now, I’d just like to quote those uncles and aunties by saying “Time Hai”, you have hundreds of days ahead of you before you have to decide anything about your future, and so, don’t feel like you’re a couple steps behind on the snakes and ladders game-board of life, you’re only checking out where your ladders are and where the snakes are before you roll the dice.