Will Never be Enough for my Eyes

People think that I just grew up and became thin with a “good” body, honestly that’s what I would want them to think too. But the honest, sad truth is that it was much more than that. It was years of not eating meals, making myself throw up what I do eat and so much exercising. You would think that I have reached the body I want but I haven’t and I don’t think in my eyes ever will. I don’t know how this is supposed to help people because to first to help others you should be able to take care of yourself. I cant preach what I don’t believe in. I know what I’ve done is wrong but I cant bring myself to agree with that because in my eyes, its what made me look like I am right now. If anyone says that I always looked beautiful then they would be lying because I know and so do they that I look better now.